So many things going on right now and moving around. The only thing you can count on in life is change.
First off because I will forget it... my new saying I'm trying to put me in a better place not a bitter place.
"I choose to believe that he is doing the best he can, whether it is true or not."
I can trust the process of life and I deserve to be loved for me.
Alright, those being done, I'll move on, because that is all what life is about these days. Moving on, moving forward, and becoming who I want to be and deserve to be.
I have started I don't know how many books - writing them that is - and there they sit. Ugh.. I wrote another section on my writing blog with the Progression series (PG Fan Fiction rofl) and I'm thinking now that I should probably group my stories for the Mystery Men first. I have those all written, I simply need to do MAJOR EDITING and then place them together. I've started the battle scene for the fantasy one but have figured out it is difficult to write battle when I've never really experienced it - my imagination only goes so far. I think I'll have to reach out to a few military buddies and see if they can share some things with me without triggering them. I have the forward written on the main project ... I'll just share the name... "Positive Bullcrap" rofl. Even when feeling that way I was having a hard time figuring out how to make it all fit together, so here is to hoping that I can do that within a short amount of time. I have PTSD author friends who are going to read it for me before I decide whether to share it with the world - so fingers crossed!
My son got my desktop computer up and running - SO THANKFUL! It is nice to be able to sit here and type and 1. be able to SEE 2. actually feel like I'm writing and not worrying about my laptop falling on the floor and 3. have my KPOP playing forth from the speakers!! WOO!
Now that this system is up and going I need to work a little more on the room I'm in so that the clutter and mess behind me doesn't stress me out and so that my grandbaby can come down here with me on and off during the day and he can play or watch some video's while I type. I am searching for an online job that I can do remotely, sort of like I've done for the past 22 years. For 3 years of my 25 working from home, I worked out of my sister's home and it felt like home so I really should count it as such I suppose.
I am rearranging my budget, doing away with things not needed, cleaning spaces and organizing my life again. It feels good.
I trust the process of life and that I deserve to be loved for being myself, because I am amazing.
Maybe if I keep saying these I'll believe them. Lol. I'm kind of excited to get my house to my liking, I have to be patient for money to do so ... ahh, always some delay.
I went to see my reflexologist today and she helped my body do amazing things. I really hope this feeling lasts longer than just tonight, that would be incredible. I think I shall pray for that, sounds like something worthy to pray for. ;)
Paix
First off because I will forget it... my new saying I'm trying to put me in a better place not a bitter place.
"I choose to believe that he is doing the best he can, whether it is true or not."
I can trust the process of life and I deserve to be loved for me.
Alright, those being done, I'll move on, because that is all what life is about these days. Moving on, moving forward, and becoming who I want to be and deserve to be.
I have started I don't know how many books - writing them that is - and there they sit. Ugh.. I wrote another section on my writing blog with the Progression series (PG Fan Fiction rofl) and I'm thinking now that I should probably group my stories for the Mystery Men first. I have those all written, I simply need to do MAJOR EDITING and then place them together. I've started the battle scene for the fantasy one but have figured out it is difficult to write battle when I've never really experienced it - my imagination only goes so far. I think I'll have to reach out to a few military buddies and see if they can share some things with me without triggering them. I have the forward written on the main project ... I'll just share the name... "Positive Bullcrap" rofl. Even when feeling that way I was having a hard time figuring out how to make it all fit together, so here is to hoping that I can do that within a short amount of time. I have PTSD author friends who are going to read it for me before I decide whether to share it with the world - so fingers crossed!
My son got my desktop computer up and running - SO THANKFUL! It is nice to be able to sit here and type and 1. be able to SEE 2. actually feel like I'm writing and not worrying about my laptop falling on the floor and 3. have my KPOP playing forth from the speakers!! WOO!
Now that this system is up and going I need to work a little more on the room I'm in so that the clutter and mess behind me doesn't stress me out and so that my grandbaby can come down here with me on and off during the day and he can play or watch some video's while I type. I am searching for an online job that I can do remotely, sort of like I've done for the past 22 years. For 3 years of my 25 working from home, I worked out of my sister's home and it felt like home so I really should count it as such I suppose.
I am rearranging my budget, doing away with things not needed, cleaning spaces and organizing my life again. It feels good.
I trust the process of life and that I deserve to be loved for being myself, because I am amazing.
Maybe if I keep saying these I'll believe them. Lol. I'm kind of excited to get my house to my liking, I have to be patient for money to do so ... ahh, always some delay.
I went to see my reflexologist today and she helped my body do amazing things. I really hope this feeling lasts longer than just tonight, that would be incredible. I think I shall pray for that, sounds like something worthy to pray for. ;)
Paix
